May 22, 2013
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Baby Clothes
In preparation for moving, one always takes stock of their belongings. Part of that necessitates some trimming of the fat and a few trips to the Salvation Army donation center. I am trying to bring myself to begin this process, even though Josh isn't home to help me with it, and I'm not sure that it's a good idea because of the contents and what it means to me.
I'm not a hoarder, not at all. Keeping extra things around feels "heavy" to me, and has never been something I was prone to (unlike my oldest sister who collects both things and people and has a hard time letting go even if they were never hers - for example, she has my ex-boyfriends on her FB. Excuse me, but why? It isn't like they were pals. KWIM? She's a collector). That said, the things I have that it's time to trim away are the baby items.
Because we can't have any more children due to my medical need for a Category D medication (absolutely poisonous for a potential baby). It's time for me to go through the closets and pull out the baby clothes I saved because they were still perfect for another baby or because they held precious memories for me. To get rid of our baby crib and baby toys. The baby swing, the bassinet. It all makes me start to choke down another sob. We wanted more children. We didn't plan for this, but we accept it. We love our family the way it is. We are satisfied with our son and our daughter.
But this process, man it just puts it right in my face. It's not just knowing that it's over. It's deleting the stuff.
I already know. The onesies will be the hardest.
I have to stop myself, I was just looking for an example picture of my kids when they were babies in their onesies. And it reminded me of how precious the baby robes were after bath time, and the socks, and just all of it. I'm not sure if I should go through these things when Josh is gone or not....
*Yes, it occurred to me to donate these things while there are trucks collecting locally for tornado relief (we live in Texas, and proximity to Oklahoma facilitates this process readily). It's kind of why I'm trying to push myself, although I'm not sure they would accept my crib (Salvation Army doesn't accept used baby "furniture").
Comments (2)
Well donate the clothes, perhaps save one onsie for each child, for memory sake, but I think it would be awesome to donate it. If they don't accept the crib then . . . uhm, I hate to say this, but throw it away, unless you know someone that is having a baby soon, give it to them.
I know how hard this can be. My wife is still having a hard time parting with the girl clothes and other baby accessories even as August is growing out of things and we really have no need (or room) for them. I say take your time and allow yourself to grieve the loss. Process it and make peace with it in whatever way makes sense to you.
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